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How a “Boating” accident impacted my family!

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I was in an boating accident on the weekend of July 4th, 2017.  In my wildest dreams I never thought this would happen to me, worse yet my entire family (except my son).  My children are in their 20’s.  Intuition is powerful ~ When I stepped on the boat I had a feeling to not go on the boat ride but my stubbornness overrode this feeling.

We came upon a boat that needed towing.   I immediately said “yes” which is not like me.  I sat at the tip of the boat with 2 of Megan’s (my daughter) friends.  We threw a line to the boat and it was probably 3 minutes into the tow when myself and the 2 other gals had a premonition something was about to happen!  …and out of the blue “my husband says they are going to hit us.”  I looked up and saw a boat headed straight towards us.  No time to think or do anything.  They hit the right side of our boat where my husband was driving and ripped out the right side of our boat.  Thankfully we all survived.

We stood there in disarray for a moment and it was completely quite.  The windshield on the right and left side of the boat was shattered in very small pieces and my thought was.  .. oh know someone died! I began to panic as I saw blood on myself and some of the others.  My eyes were open but I did not want to see.   I did a head check and everyone was accounted for.    I saw Megan’s friend crying and she wanted to get out of the boat.  Yep, I felt responsible for everyone!  Always a mother!  I was scared due to the fact I did not know if someone got injured very badly.  Everyone was scared, in shock and crying, even my husband who never shows his feelings.  I was confused because the boat that hit us stayed at bay and did not even offer to help.  Eventually someone did come to help and got the girls who were crying off the boat and towed us into land.  Grateful there was no injures to the boat we were towing but one quick look I could see that they were also in shock.

When I arrived on land I was very grateful and was relieved I was no longer on the boat. From what I saw everyone had that feeling!  I felt powerless due to the fact I saw my daughter crying and some of her friends.  I felt sad that we had this experience.  What I noticed within myself is that I could not form a sentence.  I did this for a few days.  Fear, and anger was my best friend.  It was hard to comprehend what had happened.

Several of us went to the hospital and everything was okay.  What kept going through my mind was how precious life is and it could be gone in an instant!  I also realized none of us were meant to die.

On the way back to my Lake House I was scared that we were going to get in a car accident and my daughter’s felt like that too.  When I arrived back to the house we were humbled, frightened and grateful for this experience.   It’s been 6 months and yesterday I finally (6 months later)  I went to the Lake House and I was glad I did cuz I cried and cried the fears and emotions of what had happened came barreling in.  I had no idea of the amount of fear I carried around with me for 6 months.  that I had that was crippling me until I came face to fa

 

 

What’s The Rush?

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This time of year can be overwhelming ~ family gatherings, parties, work, consumerism, I think you know what I mean.  But does it need to be like this?  I believe we do not need to rush.  For example, New Years Eve is a week away and most people are already focusing on that day.  Food for Thought:  When you find yourself thinking about the future bring yourself back to the moment over and over again.  Here are a few things which have helped me~

1.  Whatever is swimming around in your head put it down on paper.  If you think it, Ink it!

2.  Notice your thoughts and realize they are just thoughts passing through your mind, don’t try to change them or discard them.

3.  Laugh at yourself and others.

4.  Time is an illusion ~ whatever you are doing is what your meant to be doing.  It is not right or wrong.

5.  99% of the time your thoughts do not come to fruition.

6.  Remind yourself that your health and well-being come first and nothing is thatimportant to get bent out of shape about.

7.  Stop, slow down and breathe

8.  Ask yourself “Why am I rushing.”

9.  Let go of the outcome.

None of us has it down pat and by golly I am glad about this.

Why not enjoy the moment no matter what is happening.  There is no right or wrong, it is happening the way that it is so we might as well make it our friend.    I think I rather be floundering than having all my ducks in a row!   The planet will not blow up or your favorite grocery store will not burn down.  FYI:  Walking to the grocery store is just as important as walking to the gym or walking o a party.  Every moment of our lives is important no matter what it is we are doing, even if that means scrubbing the floor.   There is no rush and there is no getting anywhere .  You are already meant to be where you are!

13 Steps to Empowerment

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This is my empowerment steps.  I thought maybe writing about it would be most beneficial.  Anne’s Yoga sutra. hehe

1.  Notice the resistance

2.  Stray away from fixing, healing.  Just Be

3.  Move forward and trust everything is working out perfectly and there is a divine intelligence

4.  Everyone is on our side.  Give everyone the benefit of the doubt.

5.  Gently move forward and we are more alike than different.

6.  See the good or “god” in everyone we meet.

7.  When you or I feel “triggered”  meet myself, yourself with gentle loving compassion.  Tap into intuition.  True intuition has no emotional charge.

8.  Know that everything you are experiencing is “okay”.

9.  Keep a journal for your progress. Look at it every several months to remind yourself of how far you have come.

10.  When you are faced with pain in the body.  Know there is an answer.  Help comes in unimaginable ways ~ health profession, a conversation you overheard, friends, family or in a dream.    Care for the body with whatever remedy is needed.

11.  Lessen your “seriousness”.  Laugh even if it is fake.  Laughing is contagious and it is a healing balm not only for yourself but those around you.

12.  Notice the “lies” we can tell ourselves.

13.  Stray away from drama.

A Gateway to a New Expression: Self Love….

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IMG_5467I have always been under the belief that “self love” is selfish…this is not true!   I was brought up in a family of 7 which included my parents and I tended to the younger siblings quite often as my Mom always did for everyone else but not herself.  I am sure this contributed to my belief system  of putting  yourself first is selfish.  I also was under the influence of the church that it was better to give than receive and I felt quilty when I did receive.  Most of my life I would seemingly  put other peoples needs before mine.  I  believe the resentment I have felt was because I didn’t nuture myself, but I was an expert at nurturing others.  After all it is much easier to tend to others than yourself!
I lean into what “lights me up” instead of what brings me down when I make a decision.  I have learned and continue to learn to surrender.  I have no control of how things are going to turn out but I do have control of how I will respond.  I am learning to say “No” and not giving my power away to outside sources.  Prioritizing my schedule has been essential to my growth.  At this moment I believe my purpose is to know that everything is possible and we live in an abundant universe AND it “lights me up” when I witness other people doing this!  My advice is… do for yourself first and everything will fall into place, listen to your own voice and sway from outside distractions, do something everyday that nutures your soul,  patterns can be broken and go after  your dreams…after all isn’t that why we are here!

Best Retreat in Portland, Oregon

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I had the opportunity to travel to Portland, Oregon in the Spring of 2016.  I went there for a retreat for 5 days with a beautiful community of people.  It was a retreat given by Matt Kahn and Julie Dittmar.  I have been following Julie and Matt for several years now.   They are spiritual teachers whose humor and grace will capture you unwillingly.  I felt totally loved and nurtured the entire time I was there.  Not only by Julie and Matt but everyone at the conference.  My barriers came down whether I liked it or not.  I also felt I was in a safe place to allow my emotions to surface.  Imagine being in the company of 330 or more people!  Knowing that the person sitting next to me was probably going through the same thing I was gave me such relief and comfort.    By day 5 I was lighter, happier, confident and radiant.  Would I do it again?  Absolutely!  I have been to a lot of retreats and I would say this was one of my favorites.

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The retreat was held at the “World Forestry Center” in Portland Oregon.  I was captivated by the beautiful trees which surrounded the center.  It was a hop skip and a jump from where I stayed.  I stayed at the Marriott Center in downtown Portland.   I was surprised of the short distance from the Marriott to the Forestery Center.  I took the Max Light Rail Terminal.  It was less than a 10 minute walk from the Marriott to the terminal.    Food in downtown Portland was delicious and fresh.  I don’t remember the names of the places I ate at but I can reassure you it was delicious.  One of my favorite dishes was a blend of rice, vegetables and sauce ( I wish I remembered the name of this place).  I ate there more than once and I found it soothing on my digestive tract.   The breakfast at the Marriott was good and the staff was very accommodating.  Can it get any better than eating breakfast and viewing Mound Hood.  I found Portland to be very clean and nourishing.  I was surprised of the amount of homeless people.  On my last day I was gifted with meeting several homeless people.  It’s hard to put into words how I felt.  My heart cracked open and I found the 2 men to be very wise souls.  Looks can be deceptive!  If you ever have the opportunity to travel I would highly recommend Portland, Oregon.  There was nothing I did not like about it!