I’m 53 and I cannot believe I am at this place again!  Being “needy” so my children will love me.  Bah humbug!  I know my children love me so what is the issue?  I remember after I had my first child my Mother was visiting and I noticed how much she wanted to be loved by me when I already inherently loved her.  It felt like I was being suffocated.  As I traced the thread back this started since the time I was born.

I swore up and down that I would never be like this!  Wrong! Wanting to be loved at all costs.  Yes,  this is hard to admit.  Now the declaration is to take conscious action.  I started to notice I don’t say “No” when I need to out of fear I won’t be liked.  i.e.. my daughter asked for money for the hundredth time when I clearly knew I needed to say “No” but I gave it to her anyway.

I know fixing a situation even with money is not empowering.  My gut never lies.  The only person I am in charge of is myself.  Yep, our children are not ours they belong to God!

Posted on February 12, 2016 by Anne Lamantia