I truly believe I am beginning to understand the meaning of “Body/Mind” Integration. Being peaceful & grateful is essential in my daily living circumstances. It has been a gradual process. Let me explain:
You may ask what got me to this place? Commitment, letting go of drama, and noticing how I respond to triggers.
Letting go of drama involves allowing life to play out without getting involved in other peoples situations and at the same time being a good listener. We as human beings “feel” better when we seemingly fix other peoples problems. I know that I do not want anyone to fix me or tell me what is best. Letting go of drama also includes letting go of our stories, ie. past hurts, regrets and gossip. To notice what you are noticing without judgement.
Triggers: We all get triggered by events and situations. It’s important to notice when one blames another for a perceived misfortune. This is what I experience when I have been triggered. 1. Somatic response to a situation, i.e.. gut feeling or feeling heavy. Most of the time it is a emotional response to a situation such as hurt, anger, sadness, and fear. Integration occurs when one allows the emotion to surface through completion. The key is to notice the emotion as best as you can without judgement, and breathe and allow. Sometimes a memory will “trigger” an emotion. When this happens I immediately try to micromanage it which only creates frustration. I have also “distracted myself” from feeling. i.e. going to the fridge, stifling it etc. Most of the time it has nothing to do with what is happening in the moment.
An opening occurs when we allow the emotions to cascade through our bodies. The more I STOP, SLOW DOWN and BREATHE without judging myself the more grace and ease I feel. Remember ~ not to take yourself seriously. Run towards yourself not away from yourself. Someone once told me being “uncomfortable” is your greatest teacher. If you feel scared or unsafe do what is necessary. It can be scary in the beginning especially if your not used to it. Call a friend, go for a walk. Triggers are fantastic and it is a gateway to one’s evolution. So trigger away!
53 and I cannot believe I am at this place again! Being “needy” so my children will love me. Bah humbug! I know my children love me so what is the issue? I remember after I had my first child my Mother was visiting and I noticed how much she wanted to be loved by me when I already inherently loved her. It felt like I was being suffocated. As I traced the thread back this started since the time I was born.
questioning God and prayer.
gin. A friend told me about Dr. Junger’s 21 day cleanse and I decided to give it a go. I liked the idea that he was a Doctor and had written a cookbook called “Clean Eats” and I was curious to see if I had any food sensitivities.
ot feel my emotions ~ for example my anger, sadness or grief, and I felt ill-equipped. I began to notice there was this heaviness I accumulated in my body and I believe it was because I did not process my own pain. As time went on I began to get in touch with my anger, sadness, hurt and fear. As I began to get in touch with these aspects I began to feel lighter and to my amazement less depressed. Oh here is another big one for me! I also noticed when I interacted with others I was too involved with their stories. Over the last 5 years I have been willing to acknowledge my feelings and as I do I unravel.
2. Witness your thoughts.
e smell of the environment and my stomach found it offensive. I had to leave and get some fresh air. It made me wonder how often we are bombarded by toxins and don’t even know it. Taking care of ourselves involves not only being mindful of the foods we ingest, exercise and releasing emotions but environmental hazards as well. Research has shown that computers and cell phones disrupt our electro-magnetic fields. We keep a clean body by bathing and I believe we have to keep a clean energy field. Outside stimuli is the new norm and it is unfortunate.
Anne LaMantia 