Are you a person who turns and faces their fears or do you run away, hide or contract? I am/was one of those individuals who contracts and hides in the face of fear. Why? I am not sure other than maybe I was taught to do this. It may be that I was afraid to look at my fear as if a ugly monster was going to be uncovered.
A wise person once told me that in the animal kingdom it is their nature to shake off fear. I thought that this was a good analogy. It made me look at areas in my life where I am holding onto fear. I realized I was not letting go and trying to control the outcome. The outcome of the way people are supposed to show up, the outcome of my career, and the list goes on and on. I was “struggling” against things instead of allowing. I was exhausted and paralyzed from moving forward. I literally felt crippled. Realistically I have no control over the outcome anyways. Everything is unfolding in the way it needs to. More and more I am moving with the flow of life and I have found this liberating.
How did I get myself to let go and move forward? By facing my fear head on and allowing myself to feel the feelings associated with it. This included past events that I found unforgivable, recognizing the voice in my head is not real, and feeling the anger and sadness which I labeled as wrong or bad. I have learned and still am learning to love these emotions. As a wise person once told me “Energy is just energy in motion.”
Anne LaMantia 